About Me
It’s always hard to say who I am…
Well, I’m a chronically bored/depressed/apathetic/ obsessive/ anxious 24 old guy. I’m studying computer science and I’m not much far from graduating, not that I care much about that. As expected from a depressed, after all.
My range of symptoms include: insomnia (due to racing thoughts and anxiety), hypersomnia (probably due to lack of energy and restless sleep), impaired attention and memory, social and emotional impairments, indigestion, lack of physical energy, and alternating periods of low motivation and apathy with periods of obsession and intense commitment. Lately I’ve been losing a lot of hair too.
The symptoms somewhat match those of a depressive disorder, but apparently I have learned to cope with it so well it doesn’t affect much my life, probably because of an inferiority complex that drives me to strive for constantly improving what I think is other’s opinion about me.
That’s the main reason I’m reluctant to start taking medication for depression, and I will think about that only if psychotherapy fails, or when the situation becomes intolerable.
I’m not much of a writer, and my mother tongue isn’t English, but after reading experimentalchimp‘s journey I thought that starting a blog maybe wasn’t the worst of all ideas I could think of. Be it that I happen to incidentally help someone with my same issues, or to get some help from fellow bloggers, it’s surely worth a shot.
